Occasion

The longing will not fade. It only grows. My heart is dying inside my chest. It is rotting inside me, hollowing me out.

Clutching my chest, my knees hit the floor. Every breath a struggle. Pain rips through my body. Blood seeps from my lips.

Darkness enters.

Night

This loneliness is unbearable. The day rolls into night then back into day but it only gets worse. The darkness surrounds me, crowding me, pressing me, choking me. I scream for help but no one hears. No one wants to hear. I am alone.

Dying.

Slowly.

Random Call

Wow. Thank you so much. I have never felt so loved. My friend, you floor me.

Safe

Shake. Rattle. Thank God for no roll.

Tire exploded on the highway. This is my night now.

Change

Everyone keeps calling me Steve and I find it so weird.

Goat

Screw honesty. Some things are better left unsaid. My foot is most at home solidly lodged in my mouth.

Irresistible

Standing here next to you and all I want to do is kiss you.

Longing

I want it. I crave it. I need it. I cannot go through this life alone.

Here With Me

I see you in my dreams. Your beauty startles me. Never do I dream in such detail as when I dream about you.

Saint

If you were wine, I'd be a drunk. If you were a drug, I'd have overdosed. If you were a song, I'd be deaf.

But you are. I drink you in and I become giddy and stupid. I inject you into my veins and the world feels right again. I hear your voice and it is music to my ears.

The human condition has not enough senses or emotions that could allow me to accurately convey the way you make me feel. But if I really had to try, I would go with "happy".

Happy Valentine's Day, my dear, dear Hannah.

Await

A dreary heart gives way to dreary eyes. Fingertips on the edge of consciousness fail and I fall into the chasm of sleep.

My wait has ended in failure, but there is light yet to come. Your presence will rise with the sun and they both will give new life to my smile.

Goodnight, my dear friend.

Queue

If there is a girl out there for me, why can't I have her now? Why can't I be happy?

Purpose

I pour my heart out on these pages, but what purpose does it serve? Who does it benefit?

Maybe Someday

Maybe someday I won't be a coward. I won't hide in my room, afraid of what everybody else thinks. I won't run away in the car, staying out so everyone thinks I have a life. I won't curl up in a corner and cry out of sheer loneliness.

Maybe someday.

All

I fell in love with you the way you fall asleep slowly then all at once.

Anger

Kicked while I'm down. Spit in my face and walked away. I did what I've always done and now I'm paying for it.

Driving out of the driveway, I cursed in anger. I was actually starting to look forward to going out and you had to go and do that to me. Drop me down to my lowest as I walked out the door.

For once, I'm happy you won't be here all night.

I love you.